This picture is the STORY behind the time that I felt when I was truly myself
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"I drew a big picture of me when I felt that I was truly myself I drew myself in a circle play with my toys and stuff that keeps me happy as a little kid i feel like everything inside my play area is is enough and I feel comfortable staying there and not realizing how the outside world contain much more than just what I see in this picture i try to make it so that the shadows focuses on myself and slowly darkens into the outer circle to show how like uh I this is what i only see and enjoy back then get to know that the outside world can really be"
This picture is the STORY behind WHO you see in the mirror today.
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"This is a drawing of the story behind who i see in the mirror today I drew myself in the middle of the darkness feeling lost using the shading around me from light to dark it represents myself feeling lost in the world and the constant pressure that I have to do I always hold my work like a candlelight because I always feel like it's the only thing that guides me through this I just drew scribbles on my table because of the amount of work and such as my problems every day that my parents installed cctvs or cameras to monitor me and try to get me to be working hard however it did put a little scar in my heart that i have this feeling that someone or something is watching me and how i need to always try harder push more pressure on myself to become better this is like a conceptual drawing because it shows how i actually feel on the inside but also including a bit of observational drawing from what i see myself on the mirror"
This picture is the STORY behind WHO you want to become. However, instead of drawing that, I drew what I think I might become.
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"This artwork is an artwork of the story behind who you want to become now this might not show much of like how i actually want to become but it does represent how i'm feeling what I will become in the future this tell the story of how i always feel the future will be like I always relate to moments where i sit with my dad on the car going to school or anywhere my dad will always tell me stories of how he became successful like he is today and the more i descend the more I became more pressure and sometimes i think i hit like what if I'm in his position nowwhat if i'm in the driver's seat and taking all the pressure of doing work so this is what it represent what i want not actually want to become but what i think about like become what it will be in the future this is more of a conceptual drawing because it's from the thoughts of my mind I also once again use the same shading to show how i'm i feel lost in the world"
This picture is all three drawing above collaged into one picture.
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"This collage is a combination of my past future and present drawing image it all started from when I was a baby and then it leads to my first drawing of me enjoying myself in the play area with my toys with nowhere in the world then I move on to pick up some hobbies and play some sports even to go out and see the world as then I became much more pressured into the academic side this was my last picture of me playing the piano for the last time before never playing it ever again this image this photography that i added is when the last time i smiled genuinely being happy and then I started becoming more pressured on the inside i'm always sad and trying to be better and that is what I am pressured into doing all the time but on the outside i'm always trying to smile and socialize with people so I always seem joyful but actually i'm sad on the inside from my middle picture that i drew and in the future i still don't know what it will be and this is what i drew in the last picture I use arrows to show the timeline and which direction each picture leads to"
This video talks about the three drawings and how I put it together into one collage
The video is six minute long because I love to explain in depth, I do not like the time limit that limits me from explaining all the image in depth and detail. The editing is not as important as my voice explaining so there is no fancy effects in the video.